Dedication

Today, was one of the funnest days I've had in ages.
Why?
Because i was grounded.

Thank you Mummy and Daddy♥

Finally an uneventful weekend.
No leadership training. No worship rehearsals. No stupid bowling matches. No movies that i need to watch just because i need to go. No dinners to attend. No youth group. No nothing.

Can anyone understand how i feel?
I feel like a birdie, that's finally been released out of her cage....into her own house.
Because the birdie didn't go to church...........
Ok this sounds remotely sad. I'll stop. But the point is..

I feel so freeeeeeeeee
Ground me more!
:D:D

Blehness

Today's been a really weird day. Seems like everyone's getting the whole end-of-term vibe. For some reason we're all acting differently.. somewhat moody...

Sigh. It's scary actually. After tomorrow, we have two more weeks. Then one more term. Then year 13's basically over. Exams exams exams. Finished. Done.
Your childhood has now officially flown out of the window.
Next year...wonder what's going to happen?
Half of everyone i know is basically emigrating down to Dunny, then there's the arty people flying up to the wind tunnel.. and the smart turds up to Auckland.
Mr engineer's staying here along with some other bums.
I really need to decide where I'm gonna go pretty damn soon.
Sighhh

It's weird. Without any sense of direction of the future, you almost lose purpose. What's the point of aiming for excellence? On the scale of things, an extra four E credits isn't exactly going to increase the chances of you getting a job in some office firm is it?

Then again, what's the point of living anyway?
You're born, you learn. You go to school for university entrance. You go to uni, you graduate and get a job. You earn money so maybe now you can support your own family and contribute to your retirement fund instead of relying on Kiwibank. Then of course, you die. And admist this process you raise your own kid to experience this exciting pattern of life.
Depressing thought really.

Heh. Guess you just gotta take life each day as it comes.

fml

Just six more months right?
Six more months...

Then it'll be all over

Everything. Can. Be. Over.
God, i can't wait.

I need to leave this godforsaken place.
I need to escape from prison.
I can't breathe anymore. I can't feel.
Everything's gone numb.
I'm gonna burst.
Or i'm gonna return back to how i was 10 years ago...
I can't.
Must keep holding onto the fact that only six more months left.
Have to endure it.

God help me.

回忆

好久没更新博客了
天天忙到自己都不知道在做什么
呵呵
好傻呀

回忆突然像波浪打翻了水坝
眼前看到的如同连续剧一般，每一篇的回忆闪过眼帘...
你们还记得吗？
>我家的上下铺，在黑暗的尖叫中拿着手电筒的刺激
>大家最爱玩的大富翁。{one donna!}
>那次去溪溪家，虽然因为妹妹我们先走了 但听说你们给为她唱了一首‘野地的花’
>还记得我家后面的公园...秋千，滑梯 呵呵 还有小楚楚追着一群傻小子跑
>去nelson的营会 一起下超大阪的人工棋
>还有在那次沙滩上挖巨大的坑，一定已经被海水淹没了吧
>我们一起最爱打的四人心脏病
>还记得中文学校，一起在班上胡闹，舞蹈课前偶尔也会看见你们打武术
>还有那件诊所 记得以前最爱去那里玩
最重要的，我们的教会
这10几年来，它象征着不只是我们的家
在里面我们拥有着太多共同的回忆...
主日学的现诗，少年团契的单纯
太多太多的回忆..

而现在呢？
他已经上了大学，奔向世界
他也慢慢的再长大，不再是小时候的孩子了
她已经从中国回来，重新加入我们这个家
她和她也是在经历最后一年的压力，青春期的冲动

我们也早就搬家了，上下铺也没有了
那件诊所已经被白色的围栏包围着，不再有被欢迎的感觉
回到中文学校元老也早就离开了

更何况年底我们仨就要毕业了
不知道每个人又要飞到哪里去

可是我相信，虽然我们每个人要选择的路是不一样的，
但小时候那最真诚的友谊永远将我们每个人的心都连接在一起
友谊就是有着这么伟大的力量...
通过时间的磨练，彼此的感情只能变得越来越强壮
所以，让我们珍惜以前的回忆，去创造新的人生吧！