Rant

I am so sick of this.

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Forward. Stop. Rewind.

Everyday I feel like I'm watching my own TV drama

One leaf after another, the pages in the novel is turned.
Countless moments of Dejavu...

I've been here before.
I've seen this.
I've read this.

Except it's different.
Because there's me.
I shouldn't be here.
So does that mean I'm put here for a purpose?
Does that mean that the ending will be different?

But how do I make it different?

How am I supposed to feel? React? Help? Change?
Mrs Dixon certainly gave zero guidance. Pastor, youth leaders...they talk big. But how can they fathom what's happening?
The Bible..it brings comfort, solace... and?

Feel like I'm walking in a blanket of mist. Can't see anything in front except more smog.

Sometimes I wish Mark Haddon would rewrite "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Nighttime", and add in a sister. Wonder how she's supposed to feel about everything.

祝福

千言万语，只能对你说：



对不起，谢谢你 ♥





I'm really glad we had that talk.



< /3

Blonde...

This is stupid.

I've forgotten half the passwords to my own blog!!








..MAN
I thought I was only technologically challenged ><"!

...Mocks

Sigh.

Got my results back.
They were not amazing... pretty much straight merits through everything. Except Calc and Eco.
Calc=2 Achieves
Eco = 3 excellences.
Opposite ends of the scale.. lol.

Makes me feel good? Not really.

"Substantial proportion at excellence" is NOT looking good.. at all.
I might flag NCEA scholarships at this rate...

In a way I'm thankful I took classics.
Hopefully the results tomorrow will boost up some grades...
Can't believe I'm relying on it. Fail much.

Didn't actually click how hard Level 3 was until now.
I really need to make a study plan...

And stick to it.

My brain's still on holiday mode.
Argghh should have done something last week.

Oh well. Too late now.

Apprentice Finale tonight!
Ill start studying tomorrow.....
....I promise! ><""

Pressure

Countdown: 20 days until NCEA exams

This week has been epic.
Since last Tuesday, I haven't touched any of my books except to tidy up my room. Been more of a holiday than the last holiday :)

And now it's time for some serious business.
It's now officially crunch time.
Gotta pull through this one month.. and everything will be over!

OMG I just realised I haven't even looked at scholarship NCEA stuff yet let alone Level3...

No pressure.

Gah before it was just "42 credits with 14 from three standards"
But now it's become, "at least 80 credits at Level 3 with a substantial proportion at excellence."
aka I'm guessing at least 70 in order to keep my 25 grand.

Sigh.. everything comes with a price.

So, if you see me on Facebook, MSN, blog... Anywhere I shouldn't be, please kick me off.

Thank you very much!
tata :)

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